Hi Rose - I'm certainly no psychologist, but I've heard the theory that in dreams, water represents the subconscious, so if that is the case, then your dreams have some very interesting meaning!
Be kind to yourself, Rose, and remember - the grass is always greener on the other side. Appearances can sometimes be very deceptive - I have judged other's lives before, thinking they have it easy or "made" in some way, only to discover that they carry their burdens too, often a lot heavier than mine.
Sending lots of love and hugs!
