Day 20 and all is good. This is my best ever attempt with methadone. I feel pretty good now. I think my dose is probably a bit high (I have lost a LOT of weight since my last try). I'm going to downgrade my dose next time I go in.
The world has brightened up a lot, and I'm finding the methadone more and more satisfying. I managed to quit cigarettes in 2006, alcohol in 2015, and if I do this, I'll have quit Heroin in 2022. I feel quite proud of my achievements. Not many people could do what I’ve done. I think I need to keep reminding myself that slow and steady wins the race.
I'll try to keep checking in but I have a bad habit of disappearing for extended periods. Just know I'm doing my best.