I've never been hospitalised due to drink, but I've come pretty close and I'm amazed I haven't.
I guess sometimes we can kid ourselves that it isn't as bad as it is, but ultimately, we're all playing chicken with death one way or another. When we drink, we're just playing a game to see how close to the edge we can get before we fall off for good. Whether that takes months or years, or hours and days, on repeat, the outcome will probably be the same. Dramatic analogy perhaps, but it's true. I'm tired of that game.
Best of luck to you and all of us!