Oh I'm glad to know that was helpful to you, silentrun. You are a non-smoker who had a temporary relapse. You know what to do and how to survive the cravings. It just stinks to have to go through that again, I know. But I'd bet that it won't be quite as difficult this time. You've got non-smoker muscles.
Once I learned how to identify my feelings, it became much easier find the underlying (immediate) cause for relapse. But I realize there's more to it, even if I can reliably pin it on a discrete event. I told Daniel Tiger about the "shhhh, you're ok" note I'd written to myself in the month or so preceding this last relapse. We agreed it might be a good idea to go on a dig to see if we can trace the gradual descent that led to that final breaking point. I've never been able to do that, but I'm willing to give it a try.