300 days today
300 days since May 15th and I feel very pleased.
It took a long time for the brain fog to lift, it took along time to feel like I had really quit for ever, but there was a moment a few weeks back where I just knew that I'd reached an understanding that me and booze were over. For first time I understood that a life in the raw, the real world with no alcohol to act as a safety blanket, buffer, shield , whatever you want to call it, was far more interesting than I had ever imagine it would be.
Here is a whole new world of emotion and reactions that are new to me and instead of what I thought might be a boring life of sobriety turns out to be intense, vivid and unexpected, It's life as I should have been living it for the last 3 decades!
But it's not easy, not for me anyway, as this has not simply been about giving up drinking, it's also been about digging deep within myself and accepting what I find and in part being willing to make a change.
There have been physical pains and aches and weird stuff happening to my body since I gave up and am learning to accept it and know they will pass.
SR has proved to be a vital tool for me, it has got me to here, 300 days of sobriety. I can not say strongly enough how grateful I am to people here who have been supportive. For those that have relapsed or those that have not even tried yet to give up, seize the moment, grab back your life. There is nothing to lose, ( except weight, anxiety, fear, bad skin) and eveything to gain ( self respect, better skin, improved relationships ) No brainer.