Wizing, I was moved by your post and your story. You're still young at 41 and are still writing it in a way (at 61 I'll admit I'm jealous of that!). This sobriety thing is far from easy, and at times it can seem almost impossible, but it is doable with help, and SR is a great way to get that help. All the best to you, keep posting and letting us know how it's going.