Good to see you posting, Wizing! 22 days is wonderful.
You said this time feels different, and that's how I felt the last time I went off track. It was so much worse that last time - I knew I couldn't recover from any more binges. I was more reckless than ever - putting myself in danger. It felt so good to get free of it and be able to hold my head up again. No more being out of control or losing track of what we're doing & saying. You're free!