Feeling more hopeful
Okay I'm feeling better I got out twice recently went to a movie and got to go skiing again. I'm really starting to connect with fellow aa meetings goers. I realize this whole do I want to stay sober was a result of my illnesses making me re think soberity. I do want to stay sober I was just craving as a result of addiction talking to me. I don't want to wake up shaking and I certainly don't look forward to ever experiencing the terrible way drinking had started to make me sick. It's also difficult to reconcile with myself that the good days,the old days will never happen again. What comes forth can never be experiencing henceforth again. I enjoy having a working mind,I appreciate having a hopeful outlook on life at least compared yesterday.
David