Overall, things are looking up -- the worst of PAWS seems to be behind me.
Gone are the complete meltdowns, anxiety levels are fading to tolerable background levels, I can drive through the streets without every red light inducing a near panic attack and I no longer am quite so desperate and despondent over every little bump in life's road. Progress!
As the worst of the symptoms fade and complacency sets in, my AV is acting up a bit lately. Knowing what PAWS is and the effect it has, though, is what is keeping me from giving in to it and having 'just a few, just this once.'
I can never drink again. The pain and despair is not worth it.