@whydoomedlove thank you so
much for the kind words. It helps so much. I am sorry for what you are going thru as well. We have been trying to work things out in counseling but he puts all the blame on me. He waffles back and forth between wanting to fix it. And then literally two days ago, he tells me he cant work on it anymore and not to contact him over the holidays. I am crushed. Still love him, but looks like he doesn’t feel the same.