Originally Posted by
trailmix 
I just wanted to say. Al Anon, counseling, even grief counseling, whatever group/program you can get in to, I really recommend that you do. Post here often too, as often as you like.
There are also some resources here, I hope you won't hesitate to use them
Thank you for the resources. I don't think I'll get to the point where I commit suicide because I do have a family that depends on me and I could never do that to them. It's just those thoughts race through my head sometimes because it would be an easy out from misery.
Even when I mentioned those thoughts to my ex, she would get mad at me for saying things like that instead of being sympathetic and understanding the things she has done to make me feel that way.