Ez,
just know you aren’t alone man. There’s others here juggling the same crazy-town scenario you are. Just lean on some of the great advice that these folks can give you. I wish I’d found this place 4-months ago. My AW had been in rehab 4.5 months now and the longer she’s in there the further she’s gotten from her family and reality. Based off her online activity, I suspect she’s looking for that next high or equivalent of that best drink in the form of a new relationship. I think best thing you can do is try your hardest to detach. It’s what I’m working on, it sucks, it’s not easy, and there are days where the anger and grief win out. But we don’t have a choice but to go on…do we? I don’t know exactly what “taking care of yourself” looks like yet in a complete picture, but I’m trying. I hope you can find a little joy in things you may have liked to do before this woman. Peace to you.