Thanks! I guess I'm at the point that I don't want to be affected by this. Until the last week of feeling desperate and looking on the internet for anything, I never even new what al-alon was. I know I should go, but I feel like I'm always thinking about it and can't amagine going to meetings for it. I come from a great family and have always learned to deal and solve problems on my own. I am in denial of my situation. I will go eventually.