Thank you who read my update... I cuddled Cookie and burst into tears... it isn't fair! I see her sitting down, just staring at the wall. I hate it. I hate the fact that she will never see me anymore! Sod alcohol... it is self-indulgent and it is not the centre of anyone's universe! You can go through as much rubbish in your lives and a lovely cup of coffee is heaven. There are bigger and scarier things happening in the world now. Be safe y'all x