Thanks dear SparkleKitty for your kind words and encouragements. Do you think by discovering these things in this age is like I am recovering? B/c I always wonder why I am like this, why i behave like this and why I am so uncapable of maintain men......
I learned dysfunctional family and how childhoold upbrining pretty much impact our adult life recently.... its just so sad....
One time, I was dumped by married man b/c of othello syndrome jealousy, but he was not in love me and wife, but he met someone at the meet.up group activity, and evantually married that lady. I am still have that jealousy, most of the time.
Originally Posted by
SparkleKitty 
Enkbaa, please do not be too sad over these discoveries. It is all part and parcel of recovery from codependence. We looked to others for validation and acceptance. Now is the time to start looking to yourself for validation and acceptance. You did the best you could with what you knew at the time, and as you learn better, you will do better by yourself.