What to do, what to do?
I am supposed to go out tonight. Dancing.
Dancing is my life. Love the clubs, Love the
night life.
I've learned over time to not go out when I'm
upset or whatever.
The last few years I quit going out and stayed
home to do lines and whatever else it was that
I did.
It was actually New Years Eve the first time
I was given a whole bag of my very own.
Mmmm, ;-)
I was thinking how awesome it was going to be
this year because, I won't be sitting at home
doing lines abm.
But I'm getting nervous now. I tend to think I'm
stronger than I am sometimes, and have
even broken my knee cap with this thinking
(long story) but it's something I do.
There will be tons of drinking and drugs out tonight.
Normally that doesn't bother me, but I only have
7 weeks under my belt, New Years Eve, and I am
a little upset about something.
Part of me wants to let all this go, and just go out.
Part of me says, No your not strong enough.
I don't know....
I know someone is going to tell me, you know your
answer, but I'm not there. I don't know it yet.
I'm hoping writing it out and posting will help me figure it out.
Meh... :-<