Thanks Scott, a lot of what you said resonated with me and sounds similar.
I naively thought that once I got sober that everything would simply fall into place. And things kind of did....externally everything in my life looks great. Remarried, bought a new house, got a great promotion at work, had a new baby....
But inside I’m just an absolute mess. I need people yet I’m scared of everyone right now. Nothing feels safe.
I have a doc appt next week and therapist starting next month. Hopefully life can stay calm until I get those supports going.