Ado, you said getting sober felt easier 10 years ago, probably because it was easier. For me, the longer I drank and the more times I tried to stop, the harder it got. You had 8 years of sobriety so you know that you can do it. But, the first few days/weeks are going to be really hard. Distract yourself, even for a few minutes, by doing something that you enjoy - a movie, music, talking to a friend, whatever works. You can get through the first 24 hours and then you will have a bit more confidence that you can do the next 24.