Coming to terms with alcoholism
I'm back after 7 years after I determined then that I didn't have a problem. Boy was I wrong. I looked at my old posts and I was ashamed. I wish I had treated it seriously then.
I know now I do infact have a problem. I realise finally consoncinse is my mental health and not doing anything with life. I alone now I let my friendships atrophy. I didn't do anything with my life because getting high and drunk felt so good I didn't care about anything else.
now drinking and getting baked no longer works I still get drunk but It's doesn't make feel good anymore.
I'm so miserable my anxiety is through the roof and I can barely get out of bed.
I don't drink and get high daily actually I use less than before but when I do I get wasted almost every time. So I will stop for a month and think I don't have a problem. I do have one though. It dominants my life even when I'm completely sober.
I find that I just can't stop god help me I don't know what to do.
David