When I think about drinking, I'm tempted by visions of a short, leisurely jog on the most beautiful, empty beach you can imagine (Anguilla). I remind myself that if I do drink, I am setting myself up for an ultramarathon in the desert wearing ill-fitting shoes, got horribly lost along the way, and for some reason the only garment available to me in the final 20 miles is a wool sweater.
I am so glad that you are seeking help with your cravings to drink. Being proactive, candid, and open to diagnosis and treatment options are big steps in this battle. I wish you well, and hope you keep us updated.