I'm sure the story is the same that has been told a thousand times on here... Just this time its personal.
I wandered the back woods for hours last night, I felt like I had no other option I was shaking with anger, normally its frustrating but not that bad. I think maybe because it was xmas eve? I just wanted a normal xmas day for our toddler for once. I called an AA hotline, I could not find an alanon one I did not really like what she had to say if I'm being honest, but its reality. At the very least it preoccupied me from doing anything stupid.
I do not know why I am so fearful of being alone, I have basically raised our son on my own anyway, we even separated briefly once before and I managed just fine after the initial hurt.
The name? yes its the plane, beautiful machine.
thank you for replying.