Twinotter.
Breathe my friend. I am sure you have a long, long story to tell. You are facing a huge decision and that is going to make you stressed to the max. I know where you are at at this moment. You are going to survive this, no matter what your decision. If you are losing it, get some help, call a sibling or a friend or someone who knows where you are at...
I left my marriage of many years and had to take care of my daughter...things are getting better...they do eventually.
You can private message me, or post to the forum here and you will learn a lot. You are not alone Brother.
I like your forum name, Twinotter...wonder if that refers to the awesoe sea planes.
Keep posting, we are here.