Originally Posted by
tomls 
Welcome! Sorry about what brought you here. You need to focus on you! It will get easier as time passes. I know that you know you can't control another person. Addiction is a very strong thing. Put this behind you and make yourself a better life! You seem like a pretty smart girl. Best wishes!
Thank you, yes, I am keeping busy and trying to keep my mind off things. Obviously I'm hurting, but I'm letting go as best I can because there's nothing I can do about him... The main thing frustrating me is my visa status and career choices now. I feel like I at least need to hear if he's filing for divorce or if he's knows in his heart that he's going to do the application. Because if he's going to screw me over on the visa, then I'd rather halt the application now and use that money 'to focus on me' by buying myself beautiful things and treating myself instead of wracking up a bill for absolutely nothing... lol.