any----I understand that it is hard to leave the relationship. It is always hard to leave a relationship that you have invested so much of yourself into. That is just a reality of life. It won't be comfortable---so, it is good if you do expect a certain amount of pain, at first---but you will know that it is temporary and it will fade away. given a little time.
I notice that you say that you have never been treated right by any man---so far. Do you have any theories of why this might be? I take it that you are including your father and brothers in this?