I'm reminded again that a nonaddict can have just as difficult a time pulling away from the addict as the addict has pulling away from his/her drug of choice.
When addicts are caught in the whirlwind of addiction, we can't see which way is up much less distinguish and know our feelings towards other people. What we know is how we feel about our drug, how we feel about going to get it, how we feel when we want it, how we feel when we want it and have some but don't need it - yet, and how we feel about it when we want it and don't have some. That's about all we're able to feel. It's a sad state.