The worst part is, I want to be with him and I want it to work but I know he won’t change.
Yes he will, 2 weeks in rehab is not recovery, so the circus is back in town.
It doesn't matter what he says, it doesn't matter what your family says or wants to do, you are the one who needs to make your own decisions here. What you would like life to look like with him is an illusion. What life has been will only get worse.
You get to choose, continue to walk through hell or grab a lifeline and end this toxic relationship. Both will be painful but leaving is healthy painful, staying is allowing the pain to get worse. You choose.