I think there may have been a reason I was having such rage regarding this. I'm not taking care of myself the way I know I should be and I'm going to end up hurting the exact same people hurt by her thinking she had more time to fix her problems. It's the start of day 2 no sugar and my joints are still on fire but already I feel the anger has dissipated. I need to pull this off also to give the senseless waste of her life some meaning. I can't senselessly waste mine as well and expect to heal from this.