Laura...I don't know how old you are but it will take its toll. I had a dear friend whom I loved. She drank and smoked daily and had no hangover....(maybe cause she would constantly drink...don't know?). At age 47 she got pancreatic cancer. She would joke that she drank and smoked and why wouldn't she have gotten lung or liver cancer. It's all related though....I imagine she would be here to day if she would have given it. I hope you can keep up the good fight. You can do it.