He doesn't make an attempt to see his kids regularly. But miraculously shows up on birthdays and Christmas.
Yeah this was typical of my exH and he wasn't an A. It frustrated the hell out of me, and like Velma said it was because I would never behave that way. And mostly it made me angry and sad because my children had such a self-centered boulder-like parent...
It sounds like you have normalized a lot of crazy behavior....we become desensitized....I try to ask myself "what would normie people would do?" All those options are open to you, regardless of previous decisions. The past is gone, you are free in this moment.
Peace,
B