That's the thing. I'm always hard on myself. I worked hard to clean up the mess I made back then. My employer said I did what I did because I wasnt well. They knew me and that behavior wasnt align with who I was. And the experience and learning would make me even better at my job and give depth to my character. I'd learn and grow. Or some such terminology.. It has I guess. They were right. And I'm married to a saint. But if she wasnt with me, she would already have beautiful kids with someone else.
Think I'm in a down mood. Had a relative pass away. Had lived a long life but wasnt flawless. Thinking about life and the legacy we leave behind. What's important, and what time is wasted on. All my mistakes and stupidity. And the future.