I do think it might be this weird lockdown, upside world we are in right now, combined with some boredom maybe? It’s an interesting question-if most of us think we could “just have the one or two” drinks. I’ve tried that before and it’s always led to increased cravings and obsessive, frantic thoughts in a fairly short time.
I hope you are doing good and letting the feelings just be feelings, not actions.
Keep us in the loop, ok? Sending you STRONG support!