Hi Venus!
and thanks Bilr, you have got a way of putting things very well and succinctly.
Ive been thinking about Venus' comments about dealing with a lot...I am at the moment and I think I'm finding it exhausting. It's ok, I have more good days and more good times than not, but the not-knowing and tension is hard work. Must be for my wife too.
Im going up a small hill in a minute to watch the sunset with the kids, then sleep, I need to sleep!