Help it's been a while, thoughts of moderating.
Hey everyone
Not been here for a while. The last couple of weeks I have been thinking or fantasising about being able to moderate my drinking again. Ive not touched any booze in 2 and a half years and I've been doing so well without it so i don't know why these thoughts are coming back to me. I keep questioning if maybe things would be different now, maybe iv matured alot and I wouldn't drink the way I used to before. Alot of the anxiety and depression I had before therapy has gone, maybe I wouldn't be the drunken emotional suicidal wreck I was before? Jeez even writing that sounds madness that I would even consider it.
Life is good & I'm in a really great place. Is this just a feeling all sober people go through from time to time and it passes? Lockdown has possibly given me to much time to think.
Anyway had to get it out because I'm even searching for success story's that people who have returned to booze and its making me nervous. Hope everyone is well.