Its just the usual stuff really Be, i think i except massive changes when i stop drinking, like i should be rewarded somehow. I've been single around 8 years and it just gets hard at times feeling like im not good enough for anyone, and took me so long to trust after my ex husband that i feel i missed out on someone yet when i did reach out and open my heart to him last year he totally and cruelly hurt me. Maybe i need to except being alone is it for me.
Also my dad had a stroke 2 and half years ago yet the pain and unfairness of it seems to be hitting me again, maybe as i drank my way throuh it.
Bet you wished you hadnt asked Be ha ha.
Sorry for rambling everyone, i hope your all well and have a good Tuesday.