It took me about 20 tries to get real distance from smoking. Probably more little swear offs in between. Same with drinking for me I suppose. Everyone abhors cigarette addiction. Understands it. On the other hand, society endorses drinking, fawns over it as a sign of high status and vitality. What is it?
It helps me to really par it down and to remind myself that I got addicted to alcohol early on, much as they say people are hooked on meth after the first puff. It was a peak experience of a substance that I have had to acknowledge and walk away from as well as walk away from a layer of collective belief and behavior. With some subtle nuances I suppose Alcohol=meth=crack=sugar=addiction. It takes some tries to get separation on.