Oh I totally agree with all that you said. My big issue is that the carrots keep getting smaller and the stick much larger.
I dont know how long I can last but I figure its best to jump off the merry go round with everything I have.
Theres two things people say around here that drive me nuts. The first one is that I need to want to be sober more than I want to drink. The other is that because I am here there is a part of me that truly does want sobriety. Annoying but I am starting to believe that they are right.