He was doing better before he left "the benders" had turned into a night or two not a week or two.. i just feel now like if he is sober and healthy the way he is saying with this new oersin (who is 10 years older) was it my fault? Was he actually that unhappy with me is that why he was doing it? I just dont understand how 10 years can be flung away so easily! Its heartbreaking i know i dont need him or even wajt him anymore. But why does he get to be happy and in a new relationship and laugh at me? Why is it me who needs to be left picking up the peices of EVERYTHINGGG ugh just so down with it all