Thanks everyone. I have calmed down a little. I know it’s good to see the real him. I’ve known how he was for a long time. I’ve just chose to overlook everything he has done. For a while now. And I swear every time I get down and depressed and think I’ve messed up and I miss him. Something comes to light. Or I hear something so cruel that he’s said about me. It just amazes me how someone can be so cruel. He cares nothing about me or my feelings. Again I have known this. But I’ve just ignored it. It just hurts that he can do and say such mean things and just move on like I never existed. Without a care in the world.