Good morning all and a good Sunday to you.
Suze, ((())) massive hugs to you. Of course you're terrified of what your mum's results are going to be, you'd be an odd one if you weren't. The thing is though there are a lot of things it could be, besides cancer. I know when Mr D.B had pneumonia he was coughing up blood for a good while ( sorry t.m.i I know). There are also lots of other things it could be, but the doctor is following the correct procedure bearing in mind your mums history, he has to be thorough. If it is the worst case scenario and your mum's cancer has returned ( I'm praying that it hasn't) it doesn't mean that it can't be treated, there is so much they can do these days. Right now, as hard as it is, your mum and your dad need you to be strong, stronger than you've ever been, even though you may feel like you're falling apart inside. You can do this for them.
You are not a cr*p mum, you are a very good, loving and caring mum, that shines out from every post you write, she is your world.
You are a good person too and your parents love you as you do them.
You're stronger than you know. We love you.
Back later. Love to all of you and stay safe. xxx