I guarantee you that if you drink, you will regret it big time.
Don't give in to that voice. It's powerless unless you give it power. Don't do it.
There will come a day when you don't even think of drinking. It's hard now, but it won't always be this way. Get thru the hard times and they will get less difficult.
Try practicing gratitude too. That helps me a lot.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post6682692 (Good article about gratitude and how it rewards us.)