At the end, alcohol had made my underlying mental health issues so insanely unmanageable I'm shocked that a mere 7 months later I'm better than I've ever been.
I went to the doctor for some meds to help and it seems to have made all the difference this time.
If you drink you get back on the merry go round, and your mental health will decline little by little.
Alcohol will never give me relief , just more hell, and when I FINALLY absolutely knew that, the nightmare was over.