Just to let you guys know. Still here.. Still Sober <3
But it is an experience getting sober and staying sober after so many years... Close to a decade... Today i was talking to a woman which i got aquatinted with years ago, and we had a falling out due to my alcoholism years back. But she was still there... The funny thing is that, she remembers and knows all the horrible things that we went through, but i don't.... I can remember some hazy memory of ill fighting and turmoil but not that it makes any significance to me... An alcoholics memory?, yeah good luck with that..
And that is where i become afraid... I don't remember... Will this demon inside me be released again because i can't recall what i did or how i was... Or is it just so simple to never take a drink again?!... Please tell me it is so... I went through so much and i don't want to hurt anyone anymore..... Oh please just let me have a chance at life...