Just lost
It's been ages since I posted here, I received a spam message today that reminded me about the site. Still dealing with the same old ****. Pot and booze. Still...made progress but always slip back. Even found God, beyond belief if you read old posts! It helped for a while, but I can't even find him now. I don't think 400mg of Ambien and 4000 mg of trazodone will do it.
I haven't felt this way for a long time but I'm getting to the end of my rope. I just can't stop. The money is piling up and I just don't see a way out. The drugs probably won't work so there is always the train. I know that will work. Not there yet.
I'm sorry, this is inappropriate. Please delete it if you need to. I just wanted to get it out. I'll probably be ok, I don't know, and I guess I don't really care. Sorry to be such a loser... whatever