Dear everyone,
I've read everyone's positive posts and feel a bit sick in saying that all is not a bed of roses for me.
My daughter has schizophrenia and it can be be difficult to cope. Her father is virtually absent from her life. He was a talented nuclear physicist but tipped over to the other side. Diagnosed with schizophrenia, on the spectrum at anyrate. He does his best. Deposits money into her bank account each fortnight and talks on the phone to her occasionally. His heart's in the right place. I'm pretty much left with the coal face stuff and I'm tired.
She is not well at the moment. Very paranoid and made paranoid comments about me on fb. I was so hurt. I phoned her and became angry. Said I need a break, and I meant it. First time ever.
I phoned her back to say sorry for getting angry but still I need a break. I'm just not coping.
She has a case manager, a psychologist, and other practical support, but still I feel guilty. I can't help it though, I know I need a break. Otherwise I'll break.
So over it.