Originally Posted by Wholesome
I had no faith, or trust, in anything but myself,
I think you're right to put faith and trust together like that. Faith is often understood as belief in a doctrine but I prefer Martin Luther's take on it that even faith is God's gift to us. So even when we talk about our own faith, it’s about God reaching his hand out towards me, not us reaching our hands out towards him.
That’s an important difference because we often feel that we have to believe or do certain things in order to be spiritual/right with God. Luther is saying, “No,no! God does it all.” He's saying that all we need to do is to trust God and live in the knowledge that that our relationship with him is secure. Perhaps you felt something like this when faced with your loss.