I have absolutely none. As we know it’s not something you can talk to just anyone about. I have some close friends I confide in and they are so valuable but as far as helping me deal with my feelings and help with my son I have no one.
Im all over the place tonight and his voicemail made me feel terrible. They are acting like he is going to walk out if I don’t speak to him and support him and that will be all my fault. They know he will die if he doesn’t crack recovery, it’s a small town and he has a huge family. I don’t want the blame even though we know here it would be his own choice.
Why the hell is this journey always one where we have to suffer and pay the consequences most?!
thanks for the support I’ve been reading past posts here and it really is like a secret world where everyone gets it.