Hi AB
I also read your entire post.
I understand where you are today. Your story while unique to you is not unique to me. There are many similar stories here on SR. I have my own story here.
"Then he did something he had never done, offered me drugs and because of the state I was in I said yes. I liked it, it made me forget the pain, and when we were high it was as if everything was going to be ok"
My first concern is where you started using drugs with him. Both crack & heroin are extremely dangerous & highly addictive drugs. I cant tell from your post how long you were using them. Also cant tell if you were taking them IV. I don't know if you stopped using these drugs? I am wondering if your having residual issues from the drug use. I wouldn't be so concerned if you were smoking weed but IV crack and / or heroin use is an entirely different ballgame.