JdA23, when one door closes another door opens. I wish you well on your new path. Keep posting to keep us up to date on your successes and setbacks, because life contains both no matter the path. The main thing is that we continue to help each other to learn and grow by sharing our experiences.
When I first started going to AA, I had a lot of trouble with words. Examples were God, disease, powerless, etc,. It was a very long list. What helped me was to open my mind and throw away the dictionary. By doing that, I got the message my soul was sending because words were no longer in the way. I now gratefully have 16 years of recovery.
Recovery is action. Not words. Not rooms. How one gets into action is not important. Staying in action is.
Words are not truth. Truth is like the moon, and words are like my finger. I can point to the moon with my finger, but my finger is not the moon. Do you need my finger to see the moon? Huineng