Originally Posted by
Tetrax 
I've never been in recovery before so never experienced this. It's a gut-wrenching feeling for sure. I thought she was good dammit.
Also it's made me worry more about you folks, so don't f this up okay?
If you attend meetings long enough, you are going to see this. I had a good friend that went back out and drank herself to death. That's not something I'm dramatizing for affect. The circumstances of her death were reported to me by her sister.
I had a pleasant conversation with a guy who was struggling at a meeting one night, and I went home thinking he would be fine. The next night, I found out he had killed himself after that meeting.
Meetings were vital in my recovery, but I also experienced for the first time brutal parts of the other side of life. My sponsor said he believed God put those people in his life so that he could see for himself how dangerous alcoholism is. If there are gods, I don't believe any of them would do that sort of thing, but seeing it happen, does underscore the seriousness of the problem.