One Is Too Many And A Thousand Is Never Enough
Its now in this state of contemplation that i truley understand the meaning of "ONE IS TOO MANY AND A THOUSAND IS NEVER ENOUGH" What is it about this "disease" that makes me believe that I AM IN CONTROL? And then once i jump into the flames i allow myself to tolerate the pain knowing deep down that im slowly turning into ashes!!!! Ive not slept in 2 nights and 3 days...The more i do the more i want...the more i want the greater my fears become...I wander to myself is i can honestly fight this intense desire to self desruct and somehow regain my strength to stay clean...Pray for me...theres a war inside me and i fear my heart is losing to my mind...
When you change the way you look at things; The things you look at change.